Monday, February 8, 2021

XWP: Awakenings 8 - Ides of March part 1 of 2 parts - 02/08/2021

 

Ides Of March, An Awakening VIII

by Hunter Ash

ripperbard7@yahoo.com

frost29@post.com



Disclaimers:  As usual, I don’t own Xena, Gabrielle, etc etc etc. For the suits and skirts, don’t bother suing me, it definitely wouldn’t even be worth the court costs.

Subtext/Alt Fiction/Sex: The story assumes a loving and sexual relationship between people of the same gender.

Violence: Gladiatorial games and a rough description of crucifixion. No bad language. Warning! This story gets a little rough for our favorite characters and can be painful to read. It was painful to write.

Storyline: This is part of the Awakening series. I hope each one can stand on it’s own but you might want to start with the others and catch up.


Ides of March:
the Amazons have been attacked and some taken prisoner, Gabrielle and Xena must figure a way to get them out of Rome before the Ides of March. There’s one problem, Caesar and his crosses are waiting for them.



Iolaus frowned at the sound of a rider approaching. Xena and Hercules weren’t due back from hunting for another day. He put down the bucket of water and pulled off a glove and drew his sword. He waited in the light snow of the territory the Romans called Agri Decumates, Gaul.

The Greek felt his pulse begin racing and his stomach turn over when the rider came into sight, a Roman soldier approaching at a trot. The Roman spotted him between the creek and the cabin and stopped in the clearing surrounding the cabin. The soldier approached the man slowly with his hands up and palms extended.


The Roman’s eyebrows raised in surprise when the cabin door opened and a small blond woman stepped out cautiously with a bow and arrow, arrow notched. She was dressed like the blond man facing the Roman with a sword, in a woolen tunic and trousers tucked into fur lined boots.

"Are you the Roman citizen Brie?" The Roman called, stopping in the snow.

Gabrielle cocked her head in puzzlement and stepped further out the door.

"I’m Brie, citizen of Rome." she answered, slightly lowering the arrow while Iolaus moved closer to the cabin.

"I bring a message from Brutus, aide to Julius Caesar." he indicated a message tube in his belt.

Gabrielle lowered the bow and straightened out of her stance. "Then you are welcome once you drop your sword." Iolaus moved to the door with Gabrielle.

The Roman’s eyes flashed with anger but he pulled his sword and approached the two cautiously, hilt extended. Iolaus sheathed his own sword and took the Roman’s.

Gabrielle moved aside and motioned into the cabin to the Roman who went through the door cautiously.

"I am Corin, Centurion." he said simply.

"I am Brie and this is Ivar of the Northern tribes." Gabrielle responded, indicating Iolaus. She sat down at the table and the Roman joined her. Iolaus took up a position next to the fire, always keeping an eye on the Roman. Gabrielle poured a goblet of ale for the Roman.

"Thank you."

The cabin was of simple Northern design. One main room with beds against the walls, the main area being around the fireplace. The Roman noticed the small child playing on one of the beds, staring at him with frank curiosity.

Gabrielle opened the wax sealing on the tube and pulled the parchment out and began reading, frowning. She got up and handed the parchment to Iolaus and went to a shelf above one of the beds. Grabbing a piece of parchment, pen and vial of ink she returned to the table and began writing carefully.

She noticed the Roman’s surprised look and smiled at him.

"I was trained as a bard."

"I’m sorry, just surprised. I know of you. Brie the gladiator, the only female to win the wooden sword of freedom in the Arena. My brother was there and wrote me of the match. He said you were astounding." the Roman grinned and Gabrielle felt herself beginning to blush.

"I was fortunate and more skilled that day," she said. "How did you know I was the same Brie, the one that was in Rome."

"Caesar sent word to the borders that you might return to your people and if you were to return to Roman territory that he wanted to be informed of it. When Brutus sent the message to one Brie of the northern tribes who also is a citizen of Rome, I put two and two together and got you." he grinned.

"Clever, you’ll go far."

Gabrielle rolled the parchment up and placed it in the message tube, lit a candle and sealed the end of the tube once again. She handed the tube to the Roman who stood easily. Iolaus handed him his sword without a word.

Gabrielle opened the door for the soldier.

"Thank you for delivering the message." she said simply.

"Thank you for the ale. By the way, I didn’t see you if Caesar should ask." he grinned and mounted his horse easily and turned with a wave, moving down the road.


Iolaus grinned and shook his head. "What is it with you? Everyone you meet suddenly becomes your friend."

"Don’t ask me." his blond friend complained with a smile. "What do you think of the message?"

Iolaus unrolled the parchment and began reading aloud.

"Gabrielle, I hope this finds all of you well and safe. A friend of ours has learned where you and your family are and would like to see you. A reunion at this time probably would not be good so I suggest waiting to see him after the spring snows melt. I know he’ll be disappointed if you move north beyond his traveling ability but things will be different in the Spring and I hope all of you can return home in the Spring without worry. Be well, vale. Signed Brutus."

"Caesar knows where we are and is planning on moving against us." Gabrielle commented, moving back towards the cabin and suddenly grabbed a running toddler as Sasha attempted to rush by her and out the door. She lifted the dark haired child above her head, getting a responsive squeal of delight from the child. The bard swung the child around and jumped into the snow with her mate’s daughter, both of them laughing and tickling each other.

"How did Caesar find out?" Iolaus frowned and then grinned, watching his friend and child playing in the snow. Gabrielle shrugged her shoulders and launched a snowball at him, catching him at the chest, sending snow down the front of his tunic.

"Hey! That’s cold!" he yelped and began dancing away down the path to the creek to retrieve the water bucket.

When he returned a moment later Gabrielle had Sasha up and moving back inside the cabin to warm up.

"I don’t know but he did. Maybe he threatened Brutus once he found out that Brutus actually owned me and knew who I was."

"Gabrielle, gladiator and citizen of Rome. That still feels weird." he smiled and sat down by the fire and removed his arm from it’s sling and began working it back and forth, stretching the almost useless muscles.

"Try being on this side of it," Gabrielle grinned back, pulling Sasha’s wet boots off.

"What do we do?"

"What else can we do? We go north and hope that the Spring does bring some changes in Rome." Gabrielle lost her smile. "I want to go home, Iolaus. I was missing for so long, my family must have gone crazy!" The Greeks had moved south at the first sign of Spring in the North, barely getting through the March snow, hoping they would be able to sneak into Greece without Caesar or Ares knowing about it. They all wanted to see their families and their homeland again.

"Over a year without knowing where you were. It drove all of us crazy. Your family, Xena’s family, all the Amazons, everyone looking for you. We just didn’t think to look in a gladiatorial arena." he teased.

"I certainly didn’t choose it!" she managed to smile back but flinched, remembering the various faces of the fighters she had been forced to kill in the Arena. She didn’t think she’d ever get used to those memories.

"I wish Herc and Xena would get back. If Caesar thinks Xena is here soldiers are probably already marching." Iolaus complained.

"I know. I don’t know if we should stay here and wait for Hercules and Xena or chance moving North and let them catch up with us. I really do not want to fall into Roman hands again."

"Me either," he whispered, looking at his crippled arm and saw Gabrielle looking at her scarred arms.

"We have Sasha to think about, let’s pack." he suggested.

"I agree." Gabrielle quickly began moving about the cabin. She stopped for a moment and looked out the window, hoping against the odds to see her mate and friend riding up. Open clearing and woods met her eyes. "Come on, Xena, time to come back." she whispered, focusing on her mate.

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A day later found Iolaus pulling his sword again as Gabrielle grabbed her sais from her boots, standing up on the seat of the wagon and looking back down the road. Iolaus stopped the horses and waited for the bard to give directions, fight or flight.

He was relieved when he saw the bard sigh and put the sais back in their holders and leap from the wagon. "It’s them!" she grinned and waited until the two horseback riders approached a couple of hundred yards and then ran to meet her mate, Xena, as the warrior slid from the back of Argo and grabbed the bard into her arms.

"We’re fine, Sasha’s fine." Gabrielle answered the main questions before Xena could ask them and was rewarded with the warrior’s lips.

Hercules grinned, watching from his horse as they kissed and then, after a moment, coughed to break them up. They both grinned and blushed at him.

"Sorry, Herc. Iolaus has missed you terribly." Gabrielle grinned.

"Feeling’s mutual," he muttered and moved his horse towards the wagon.

Gabrielle hugged her mate again. "Gods, I hate it when you’re gone!" the bard muttered.

"Me too, little one. What’s going on? We found the cabin wrecked and signs of a large group of riders on horses. Good thing I knew how to look for your Amazon trail signs."

"Brutus sent word that Caesar knew where we were." Gabrielle answered as they began walking Argo towards the wagon where Sasha was looking out the back of the wagon, a big grin for her mom.

Xena grinned back and opened her arms as the toddler struggled out of the wagon and ran the few feet to her mom. The warrior lifted her daughter in her arms and hugged the blue eyed child.

"So you got out of there." Xena stated.

"Yes, we thought we’d take a chance on the road rather than be captured by the Romans."

"I can understand that and I’m glad you did. We were frantic when we saw the cabin and then realized that you had escaped. I couldn’t lose you again, Gabrielle." Xena’s eyes became pained with the thought of being without her mate again and Gabrielle smiled and hugged both wife and daughter.

Xena watched as Gabrielle climbed back up onto the wagon with a sad smile. So much had changed with her mate. Gabrielle had been gone for over a year, captured by Roman soldiers and sold as a slave. Xena shook her head in amazement once again at what had happened to the bard.

Going from a beaten and raped Roman slave to gladiator in the Arena and winning her freedom with those deadly sais of hers. Just the thoughts of all those men abusing her bard was enough to send Xena into a berserker fury. Gabrielle knew that Xena still had to work a lot of it out of her system and didn’t say anything when Xena disappeared into the woods and came back exhausted and her sword needing sharpened. Sai, a dagger like weapon that was absolutely dangerous in the bard’s hands. It still amazed Xena at how skilled Gabrielle was with those sais and with most any weapon put in her hands now. The warrior remembered when Gabrielle hated to even pick up a sword, now she was deadly. Watching the bard work out was a revelation, it was like watching a dance, a dance of a deadly animal about to leap on it’s prey. Dancer had been an appropriate name, Xena often thought when she watched Gabrielle move now.

And Iolaus, the warrior reflected, taking several sword hits and a good beating trying to save Gabrielle from being taken. Losing the use of his arm and almost all the strength in the hand for it. Over a year of nightmares for all of them but particularly hard on Gabrielle and Iolaus.

It had taken time for the healing to begin, even after Gabrielle had returned to them. Time for Gabrielle to figure out who and what she was and Xena wasn’t sure the bard had found all of those answers yet.

The blond was no longer Gabrielle the bard, innocent traveling storyteller and companion of Xena, warrior Princess. She wasn’t Brie, Roman slave, either, nor was she Dancer, Roman gladiator and now free Roman citizen. Gabrielle still woke up some nights thrashing and would spend the rest of the night crying in Xena’s arms.


Xena grinned at the largest change in her life, Sasha. The small child of her one night with Ares when the God of War had messed with her mind and memories, causing the warrior to forget the last two or so years with Gabrielle. She still cursed that night spent in his arms but not the result. Sasha was a delight to her moms and her adopted dads/uncles - Hercules and Iolaus.

Xena secretly thanked the gods for Gabrielle’s acceptance of Sasha. The warrior knew she had been fortunate. The bard had been upset, of course, Xena was upset about the circumstances, but the bard had put that aside and accepted Sasha as her own. Having raised Sasha for the first few months without Gabrielle had been hard and Xena had been worried that Gabrielle might not bound with the child but that had happened faster than Gabrielle had gotten comfortable with her own self.

Sasha grinned back and began chatting with her mom as the warrior rode alongside the wagon, Gabrielle guiding the horses.

Gabrielle yelped and Xena pulled her sword in reflex as a bright light filled the road in front of them. Gabrielle attempted to slow her heart rate down as she looked at Artemis standing in the middle of the road where nothing had been a moment before.

"Artemis?" she asked, eyebrows raised.

"Yes, Gabrielle. I’m sorry to just drop in but its important." the goddess answered.

Xena noticed the tense look and blood on the goddess’ hunting leathers.

"What is it? How did you find us?" the warrior asked.

Artemis smiled slightly. "Some of us have been keeping an eye on you and keeping Ares from finding you. Now I need your help."

"What it is? What’s wrong, Artemis?" Hercules asked.

"Gabrielle," the goddess choked and Xena jumped off Argo and moved next to the wagon, closer to her mate. "The Amazons and Centaurs were attacked by the Romans. The survivors are with the northern Province Amazons in Belgica and need you." Artemis lowered her eyes.

Gabrielle felt her head beginning to spin as a roaring filled her ears. She wasn’t aware of Xena jumping onto the wagon and grabbing her, holding her up.


"The Centaurs, did any of them and their families get out?" Xena questioned urgently.

"Some of them made it out with the Amazons." Artemis answered.

"Ephiny? Solari? Eponi?" Gabrielle whispered, tears beginning to flow down her cheeks. Xena tightened her hold on the bard, feeling her own heart breaking.


"I can’t say who. The Romans are planning on attacking the northern Amazons next. Caesar knows that they can’t move north in the winter snow and have no allies left in the Roman territories. He plans on wiping them out and dragging the two of you back to Greece." Artemis answered.

"Caesar will have traps waiting for us every ten miles between here and there." Iolaus complained.

"Yes, that’s why you’re not going that way." Artemis said through gritted teeth. "If you agree to help."

Gabrielle turned to look in her mate’s eyes.

"You could stay here with Sasha and keep her safe," Gabrielle suggested.

"No way, little one. I was without you for over a year, we’re not going to be separated again." Xena insisted.

"What about Sasha, we can’t take her into the middle of a war?" Gabrielle demanded.

"Look, I’ll be back in a candlemark, I don’t want to attract Ares’ attention." Artemis said and was gone with a flash.

The four adults looked from one to the other for answers with frowns.

"I have a suggestion," Hercules muttered, not looking at any of them.

"Yes?" Xena urged.

"Have Artemis take Iolaus and Sasha to Eddvar’s steading up north and we go to help the Amazons." he said simply.

"I’m not leaving you, big guy!" Iolaus protested and Xena frowned.

"Gods, this is not easy!" Xena complained. "I lost Solan for so long because I sent him away and was trying to protect him. I can’t take Sasha into the middle of a fight and I can’t stay with her. I have to know what happened to Solan!"

"I can still fight and sit a horse!" Iolaus protested.

"No, my friend. Not in a battle. Someone has to keep Sasha safe and you’re the best one for the job now. Eddval, Axel and the family will protect both of you to the death if need be." Hercules said softly, ruffling Iolaus’ hair and the blond dropped his head, acknowledging the logic, Iolaus knew that Hercules was right about their adopted Germanic family. The Northerners considered the Greeks family and had welcomed them warmly and would go into a blood feud for any of them.

"Oh gods," Xena muttered.

Gabrielle sat watching the ground in front of the wagon while the others debated and discussed. Her Amazons? Survivors? That meant a large number must be dead or captured. Her friends, her family. The bard snapped up her head.

"Artemis!" she called, surprising the arguing Hercules, Xena and Iolaus into silence. The Goddess of the Hunt appeared instantly. "How many did the Romans capture?" she demanded. Artemis dropped her head and refused to answer. "How many?" Gabrielle demanded again and the bard felt Xena stiffen beside her.

"Twenty, including Ephiny." the goddess said quietly.

"Gabrielle," Xena began, a warning in her voice.

"Don’t even think of stopping me on this one, my love." Gabrielle countered.

"I’m not going to let you do this." Xena growled.

"Do what?" Iolaus asked. Then he began frowning. "Exchange yourself? No way! No!" he shouted at Gabrielle.

Xena saw that familiar clenching of the bard’s jaw and shook her head. "No, Caesar will just kill you and the prisoners." Xena continued to protest.

"No, he won’t." Gabrielle said simply.

"Why wouldn’t he? He can’t be trusted!" Xena insisted.

"Because, my warrior, you’re going to kill him."

"What?!" several voices questioned at once.

"Artemis will take us to Rome where I’ll exchange myself as Amazon Queen for my tribe. She’ll take Hercules to the Northern tribe where he will help fight the Romans off until we have a treaty with Caesar to leave Roman territory. Iolaus will take Sasha to the north and, with the money I won in the Games, will buy a good chunk of the most wild forest he can find from the tribes and Hercules will move the Amazons and Centaurs north, away from the Romans." Gabrielle stated evenly.

The other three Greeks and goddess frowned.

"You’ve always been against killing." Xena frowned.

"I’ve had to re-evaluate that the last couple of years. He threatens you, Sasha, Iolaus and Hercules and now he attacks my Amazons and the Centaurs, including Solan. No, this war has expanded far enough."

"Damnit!" Xena cursed, unable to find any other plan that had a chance of working. "Caesar won’t sign a treaty if he already has you."

"We’ll send word that he may have some of the Amazons but that the survivors have joined up with another group, are dug in securely and the Queen is willing to negotiate the release of the prisoners. He’ll deal because he can figure to make a public spectacle of my death and then go in and wipe out the Amazons anyway." Gabrielle reasoned.

"I can’t let you do it!" Xena protested again. "If something went wrong, you’d still end up dead."

"I know that but we can’t just walk away either. If we make a stand with the Amazons now everyone will die, including Solan. The Amazons can’t fight Rome anymore. You know that, Artemis."

"Yes, I was hoping you’d plan this."

"Gods, keeping their plans to themselves except when they need help," Xena muttered.

"Can you get us to Rome, Hercules to the Northern Amazons and Iolaus with Sasha to Axel?" Gabrielle asked.

"Yes." Artemis asked.

"Don’t you gods lose power outside of your territories?" Xena muttered, unhappy with the situation.

"Sometimes, some of us Greeks get along with the Northern gods very well. You should see Othinn on a Wild Hunt. He’s not bad for a male and he likes you." Artemis grinned.

"Terrific," Xena muttered and then turned to the demi-god son of Zeus, "Hercules," Xena pleaded.

"I can’t think of a better plan right now either." he muttered.

"Oh gods. Sasha, come here, my little one." Xena turned and grabbed her daughter from the back of the wagon, tears threatening to spill over her eyes.

Gabrielle bit her lip and jumped down from the wagon, grabbing two sets of travel bags, and walked over to Artemis while Hercules said his good-byes to Iolaus and Xena tried to explain to her toddler that she was going to be gone for a little bit but would be back as fast as possible. Gabrielle looked over to Artemis with a silent prayer that they all made it back, but especially Xena.

"After this is over, you’ll take her to Sasha and not make her travel over land?" Gabrielle whispered.

"Yes, my word on it. Gabrielle, I don’t want you going into this planning on dying. I want you alive!" the goddess hissed at her favorite.

"So do I, goddess. Caesar won’t kill me easily." the bard promised.

"Good! Stall for time with Caesar, politics are boiling over in Rome and the ice is melting under that pot." Artemis advised.

Xena jumped down from the wagon and carried Sasha over to her mate and goddess and the two Greek men joined them. Gabrielle ran back to the wagon and led Argo over to the small group and hugged Sasha before handing the small child to her uncle Iolaus, trying not to let the child see her tears.

"Let’s get this over with." Xena growled.

In a flash Artemis was gone with Iolaus and Sasha. Xena blinked, trying to fight back tears as Gabrielle reached out and held her hand.

"I’m sorry, Xena. You should have stayed with her."

"No, not if you’re going to do this. According to your plan I’m the only one who can get you out." Xena smiled grimly.

"You always do."

Xena ground her teeth, trying not to remind the bard that Xena hadn’t been able to find or rescue Gabrielle for over a year and a half while the bard suffered whippings, beatings, rapes and fighting as a gladiator. Xena wasn’t feeling as confident in her abilities to protect her mate as she once did.

Artemis appeared again and disappeared with Hercules.

"Gods, that is so weird!" Gabrielle complained as they waited. "What about the horses and our stuff?"

Gabrielle turned and found the wagon and belongings gone.

"What?"

"They disappeared with Iolaus and Sasha." Xena grinned.

"Gods, I hate how they can do stuff like that!"

Xena managed to laugh. "If you ever claim your immortality as the daughter of Apollo, who knows what you could do." Xena teased.

"Oh, I am not thinking about that! I don’t want that kind of power, thanks!"


"Why not?" Xena asked casually. "You could just zap the Amazons to safety and kill Caesar."

Gabrielle frowned. "No one should have that much power, not even the Gods. Look what it does to them. Ares is a pain in the neck, causing all kinds of strife just for his amusement, Aphrodite has been known to cause absolute havoc in people’s lives and my own father goes around having numerous affairs with women because he can get away with it."

Xena grinned, "That’s my love. Just checking."

Gabrielle punched her lover on the arm with an amused smile.

"Seriously, little one. This isn’t going to be easy." Xena lost her smile.

"When is it easy?" Gabrielle countered as Artemis appeared before them.

"Where to, my Chosen?"

"Just outside of Brutus’ apartment. Xena, pull up your hood."


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Xena was impressed, moving through the streets of Rome after dark could be trickery but Gabrielle was silent as a cat and blended with the shadows almost as well as the Warrior Princess. They had waited in an inn until after dark and then slipped out their window into the streets towards Brutus’ apartment. Xena had made some discrete inquiries and had found that Brutus and Caesar were in Rome and that the Amazons were scheduled for execution on the Ides of March. Two days away.

Xena quickly scaled a wall and leaned an arm down to her mate and was further impressed with Gabrielle joined her at the top without a sound. The warrior moved along the wall quickly and jumped up onto the balcony of what Gabrielle had pointed out to be Brutus’ bedroom. At Xena’s hand signal the bard followed and drew out her sais quietly, watching the street and alley below while the warrior slowly opened the doors and crept in.

After a moment, Gabrielle heard a low whistle and slipped in through the doors and shut them behind her.

"Strike a light," she heard Xena whisper and quickly lit the candle she had in her pouch and found a lamp on a small table by the balcony doors. When her eyes focused in the light she could see Xena straddling Brutus with her dagger at his throat.

"Xena! Gabrielle! Are you out of your minds!?" he demanded in a low voice.

"Maybe." Xena agreed with a grin and pulled the dagger back slightly. Reaching under his pillow she pulled out a long and sharp dagger and tossed it to the bard, who caught it easily. Xena sat back on her haunches, pinning the Roman to the bed.

"Why didn’t you go North? Caesar will have you both on a cross!" Brutus demanded, attempting to sit up but not having much success. He settled for leaning on his elbows.

"You have my family members." Gabrielle answered.

"Oh gods, I hoped you’d have gotten far enough north before you heard." he muttered.

"Where are they, Brutus?" Xena asked.

"In Caesar’s dungeons and no one gets in to see them, not even me."

"Any chance of getting them out?" Gabrielle asked her mate.

"No, we might be able to trick one or two people out of there but not that many. Damnit, Brutus! You knew the Amazons are our family!" Xena hissed.

"Yes, I know that! Do you think I had a choice? It was either that or my son on a cross for letting Gabrielle go!" he growled back.

"No." the bard whispered and Xena was up and by her mate’s side in a flash.

"This isn’t your fault, Gabrielle. It’s Caesar’s!"

"Xena is right, Gabrielle." Brutus agreed, sitting up in his bed. "It’s Caesar."

"Well, we’ve got two days to stop him." Xena smiled a smile that sent chills down the spine of the Roman and then she frowned as he shook his head.

"No, he moved the execution of the Amazons to day next."

"What? What about the Ides of March?" Xena demanded.

"He’s making a special announcement in the Senate. One he says will rock the world." Brutus said bitterly.

"He wouldn’t dare." Xena whispered.

"Yes, he would." Brutus nodded his head and Gabrielle went pale.

"He’s going to declare himself King or Emperor?" she asked.

"Yes."

"Rome won’t let him." Xena frowned.

"The Senate won’t let him." Brutus matched her frown. He wrapped a sheet around his body and walked over to the two women and gently took the dagger away from Gabrielle’s hands. "I need that for the Ides of March."

"Brutus, you?" Xena asked, sitting down at a small table as the Roman gestured to a chair, Gabrielle sat between them. "He’s your friend."

"You once asked if Caesar had any friends. I didn’t want to face that question right then but I have to now. I think he’s planning on killing me and Octavian and naming the child he has with Cleopatra as his heir after proclaiming himself Emperor. I’m supposed to go back to Britannia but he’s chosen my escort for me and there’s only enough supplies packed for a one week trip."

"Not a good sign," Gabrielle agreed.

"They’ll kill you, Brutus." Xena said.

"No, I’m not the only one. There will be many of us. The trick will be getting Marc Anthony to listen to reason before he starts using that sword of his. If we can keep him calm, we’ll live." Brutus said simply.

"What do we do about the Amazons?" Gabrielle demanded and Brutus shook his head.

"I don’t know. With the announcement coming up, Caesar isn’t about to postpone or stop the execution. He needs the spirits of the Roman citizens soaring and nothing does that like a good day at the Games. He knows the Amazons are amazing fighters and plans on having several bouts with them before crucifying them." Brutus explained.

"Crucify?" Xena whispered and Gabrielle fought back tears.

"Yes, either that or burn them as torches in the Arena."

Gabrielle fought back from losing dinner at the thought of Ephiny and her other Amazons on fire.

Xena reached out and held the bard’s hand reassuringly.

"Xena," Gabrielle looked into her mate’s blue eyes and saw pain.

"No, Gabrielle. We’ll find a way."

"Can you think of one?" she whispered.

"What?" Brutus frowned.

"Gabrielle, no, please." Xena whispered but the bard closed her eyes and pulled her hand away from her mate and reached into her pouch. She handed the Roman a message tube, her jaw clinched.

"Take that to Caesar at first light and send a messenger back here with his response." she told Brutus.

"What is it?"


"My offer of a treaty with Rome as Queen of the Amazons. If Caesar agrees the remaining Amazons and Centaurs will leave Roman territory for the northern woods where, hopefully, they’ll never be seen by a Roman again. It also offers a political exchange of prisoners." she explained.

"Who would you exchange for the Amazons?"

"Myself."

Brutus stood up in shock and quickly grabbed at his sheet, blushing as he tried to retain his dignity of being nude under the sheet. "No! I won’t let you! Xena, you can’t let her!"

"I don’t have a choice, Brutus. We can’t let our friends die."

"What’s the rest of the plan?" he suddenly demanded and Xena’s eyes narrowed.

"What do you mean?" she asked.

"Don’t try and toss me around, Xena. Neither of you would come here without a solution, a way out. How can I help? What is it?"

"I’m going to kill Caesar myself and Gabrielle won’t have to exchange herself."

Brutus shook his head. "I don’t think it’ll work. If only we could delay the executions until after the Senate meeting, then all of it would be ended. The Senate would gladly accept the treaty terms if they can claim the land and the Amazons leave."

"When would the executions take place?" Gabrielle asked, frowning in thought.

Xena’s eyes narrowed again.

"Depending on the fights, right near sunset." Brutus answered, getting up and pouring wine for all of them, still trying to keep his sheet around him.

"How long can someone last on a cross?" she asked, not meeting Xena’s eyes.

"Depends on if he has them nailed to the wood and how badly they’re flogged before."

Xena’s fists clenched tightly together. "Gabrielle," she warned with a growl.

"How long?" Gabrielle asked again, ignoring her mate.

"A day or longer, depending on how strong the person is." Brutus answered with a puzzled look.

"Long enough to survive past the Senate meeting and Caesar’s end?" she asked.

"Gabrielle," Xena growled again and Brutus went pale.

"No! I mean, yes, it’s possible, but not for you!" again he jumped to his feet and began pacing. "That would mean being on a cross from dusk to probably noonday." he protested.

"You’re not going in there! We can save the Amazons after Caesar’s gone, they’re strong enough to last that long." Xena argued with the bard, knowing what was going through her mate’s mind.

"We don’t know that. Most of them are probably wounded and many more will die in the Arena before the cross. They’re tired, hungry, wounded and beaten and saw their families, friends and lovers killed. They won’t last and you know it." Gabrielle argued back, the jaw taking on that familiar stubborn set.

"Gabrielle, you don’t know what it’s like." Xena whispered, tears in her eyes.

"No, I don’t but I’ve been in the Arena and I can hold my own in a fight in there. I’m also strong and, as you’ve said, my love - I’m stubborn." Gabrielle attempted to smile.

"I was crucified in the field, it’s different in an execution. Brutus, tell her."

"No," the Roman whispered, turning pale.

"Tell her, damnit! Describe it for her!" Xena hissed.

The Roman sat back in his chair and closed his eyes. "The prisoner is taken to a post, his hands chained above him and his clothing ripped down the back. He is then flogged with a whip that has small iron balls on the ends of the strands. It causes massive welts with the first few strikes. The next strikes rip the skin open and continue until the skin is hanging in ribbons. Then the prisoner is dragged to the patibulum, the cross beam of the cross and tied to it. Then 7 inch spikes are driven through the wrists of the prisoner, causing intense pain through the arm. If the prisoner is lucky and the executioner good, the bones can be missed in the wrists."


Brutus took a drink of his wine, beginning to sweat in the cold night air.

"Then the cross beam is attached to the stipes, the upright beam, and the legs are twisted around the cross so that the ankles are against the sides. Uncomfortable and painful. The executioner then takes a small piece of board and places it over the ankle and drives another spike through each ankle."

Gabrielle fought to control her stomach.

"Because of the position, the prisoner must raise themselves up to be able to breath. Eventually they can’t do it any longer and the lungs begin to fill with liquid. The body is starved of oxygen and the heart begins to fight. A strong fighter can last for two to four days, depending on how much blood they lose during the flogging. Eventually the body stops breathing. Its painful and drawn out."

"You can’t face that, little one." Xena whispered. "No one can willingly."

"Tell me how to save Ephiny and the others." Gabrielle said simply.

Xena growled, jumping to her feet and beginning pacing. Brutus looked helpless, unable to think of anything different as well.

"All right, but only if I don’t come back tonight." Xena bargained with her lifebond.

"Where are you going, never mind, I know where you’re going." Gabrielle also stood up and grabbed her mate in a tight hug.

"Xena, I don’t like this. Caesar knows you’ll come for the Amazons." Brutus protested.

"I know but I have to try. If I can kill him tonight then Gabrielle won’t have to even think about exchanging herself and you can get the Senate to agree to the treaty and release the Amazon prisoners." She slipped her dagger back into her belt. "Besides, that would remove the blood from your hands and those of the Senate."

Brutus blushed profusely.

"If you don’t come back?" Gabrielle whispered, holding Xena closely.

"I’ll either be dead or waiting in a cell for you to show up to join me." Xena slipped off her bonding bracelet and left it on the table while Gabrielle wasn’t watching. The warrior knew if she were captured she’d lose it.

"You won’t be alone," the bard whispered and kissed her tall warrior.

"I love you." before the bard could respond the warrior was out the door and over the balcony.

"Gods, she’s amazing." Brutus muttered.

"Yes, she is." Gabrielle agreed. "She’s only got a couple of hours to get in and get out."

"What do we do?"

"Wait until after dawn, either she’ll have succeeded or you’ll have word of her."

"Oh gods, I hate waiting." Brutus complained.

"Well, you might pass the time by getting dressed." Gabrielle suggested with a smile.

Brutus looked down at the sheet he was still tightly holding and blushed again. "I’ll be right back." he muttered, grabbing a clothes off a chair and heading for a dressing screen.

Gabrielle spotted the bracelet and fought back tears.


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Gabrielle couldn’t believe that she had actually fallen asleep as she blinked rapidly, standing in Brutus’ bedroom with her sais in hand in a defensive stance. The pounding on the outer door continued and she heard movement in the other room and went to the door of the sleeping room. She saw Brutus crossing the marbled floors, dagger drawn to the main door. Gabrielle couldn’t hear or see who it was.

After a moment the Roman nodded and turned towards the bedroom. Seeing Gabrielle at the door he motioned her into the room. She walked out of the bedroom cautiously.

"I’ve given the servants the day off." he explained as he sat down on a sofa.

"What is it?" she whispered as she saw his expression and he ducked his eyes. "He has her?"

"Yes, they were waiting for her or you. Fortunately, he doesn’t seem to know about the other plan. Maybe that’ll work to our advantage, he won’t be looking for assassins in the Senate now that he has Xena." Brutus said thoughtfully.

"And me." Gabrielle whispered.

"No, I won’t let you do it!" he argued again.

"Do it, Brutus! It’s the only way I can save her and my Amazons!"

"Damnit! If this doesn’t work I’m pulling you off that cross myself!" he promised as he stormed out the door, grabbing the message tube with him.

Gabrielle let the tears begin to fall silently as she took off her bonding bracelet and placed it next to Xena’s. Then she placed her sais with them. Either Brutus would get them back to her or she wouldn’t need them.


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Xena growled and threw her head backwards, hitting a Roman guard in the nose and was most satisfied when she heard the crunch under her skull. He yelped and the three other guards dragging her along grabbed on even tighter and the one with the broken nose punched her in the small of the back three times. Xena gritted her teeth and continued the struggle with a yell.

The warrior saw red filling her world when she heard Caesar laughing behind her as his guards tried to drag her down the stairs of the dungeon. She almost shook off her guards when one had enough and crashed his fist along Xena’s jaw, stunning her.

When her head cleared she was chained to a wall at her wrists and feet. She stood up to relieve the pressure on her wrists and looked at Caesar standing in front of her. She growled at his smug look.

"Xena, you never learn."

"How did you know?" she asked.

"You have one obsession in your life and that’s me. Once I captured the Amazons I knew that would draw you out if I couldn’t find that little bard of yours. I was right. Rest up, Xena. Tomorrow you go into the Arena and you won’t be coming out."

"Don’t bet on it, Caesar." she hissed and the Roman laughed and continued laughing as he left the cell area.

Xena looked around and wasn’t surprised to see a large number of Amazons in cells, chained to walls and chained to the pillars. It hurt her to see so many of them wounded and there at all.

"Ephiny?" she called out and saw movement at one of the cells. The Amazon Queen moved to the front of the bars and Xena growled at the sight of her broken arm.
"Xena? What in Tartarus are you doing here?" she demanded. Xena, looking around realized a large number of familiar faces were missing. She prayed they had made it out and weren’t dead.

"Do they know who you are?" the warrior asked, ignoring the question.

"No. Why?"

"Because your Queen has an idea that might get all of us out of here, at least the Amazons." Xena grinned around the bruised jaw.

"What’s she doing here!?" Ephiny demanded, face turning red with anger.

"She’s safe for now. Tell me something first."

"What?"

"Were there any prisoners in here when you were brought in?" Xena asked, looking around at the other women.

"Yes, one man in for stealing, why?"

"Where is he?" the warrior asked.

"In this cell with us." another Amazon answered.

"How does he smell?"

"What?" Ephiny asked and then her eyes narrowed as well. "He doesn’t." she growled and grabbed one of the Amazons. Xena watched as the Amazon unlaced her boot and wrapped the lace around her hands and moved among the women crowding the cell. After a few minutes Ephiny nodded to the warrior.

"It’s something I used to do in my Conqueror days," Xena explained with a shrug.

"How did you get here?" Ephiny demanded.

"I tried to kill Caesar but he was expecting me."

"Gods, will nothing stop that man?" Ephiny growled.

"If we don’t then there is someone who might." Xena said grimly.

Saturday, January 30, 2021

XWP - Awakenings 7, Reunited part 2 - 01/30/2021

 XWP - Reunited, Awakenings 7

Hunter Ash
ripperbard7@yahoo.com
frost29@post.com

Rating: NC-17
pairing: Xena & Gabrielle

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Hercules looked up from his wood pile and leaned on his ax as the warrior approached the cabin, carrying a sleeping bard, her boots crunching in the light snow.


“Did you kill her or work it out?” he grinned and was pleased with her blushing face.


“We worked some of it out. It’s going to take a long time to heal.”


“I know. I’m hoping that Iolaus’ nightmares will start to settle down now that Gabrielle’s back and well.”


“He loves you very much,” Xena commented.


“I know, I’m not sure he’s ready for that though,” the demi-god muttered.


“You almost lost him that day and I lost Gabrielle for over a year. I was a fool to wait all that time to tell her how I felt.” Xena urged and then shrugged with a smile.


“Iolaus is inside with Sasha.”


“He’s quite taken with her,” Xena grinned.


“Yup,” he grinned back. “Nikki’s in there too.”


“Good, I’m going to let this one sleep. I’m not sure she’s made it through an entire night in two years.”


Xena carried the sleeping bard to their bed and gently laid Gabrielle on the sleeping furs and tenderly covered the woman. She looked up and saw Iolaus playing with Sasha near the fire, rolling a wooden ball back and forth with her, his left arm in its permanent sling. He grinned at the sight of Gabrielle sleeping and nodded in agreement that he thought this was a good sign along with Hercules.


Xena noticed Nikki watching as well. Xena nodded towards the door and Nikki nodded in agreement and grabbed her cloak.


Iolaus caught Hercules coming in as the two women headed for the barn.


“Did you take away their weapons?” Hercules asked with just a hint of humor.


“Nikki’s in love with Gabrielle.” Iolaus commented, going back to playing with Sasha.


“Yup and I’m not sure what Gabrielle told Xena either.”


“You think there’s something between Nikki and Gabrielle?” Iolaus asked with a frown.


“I don’t know, Brutus said Gabrielle had to do a lot of things to survive. I wouldn’t be surprised if she turned to Nikki for comfort. You’ve never seen the Arena, that’s a very hard life for anyone, especially Gabrielle.”


“Gods, no. Nothing can come between them.” Iolaus shook his head in disbelief.


“I hope so, my friend.” Hercules leaned down and ruffled his friend’s hair fondly and was pleased when Iolaus grinned up at him. Gods, had he fallen for his best friend? Hades, why not? He loved Xena as well. Then the demi-god frowned to himself, this felt different.


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Xena motioned to the hay bales she and Gabrielle had been sitting on early in the morning and Nikki carefully sat down, holding her crutch close to hand. One positive thing about being a cripple, she thought, you always had a weapon at hand.


Xena sat down on the other bale, facing the Norse Amazon.


“You love her.” Xena said simply.


“Yes,” Nikki admitted, watching Xena’s hands carefully. “She’s not in love with me, though. I know that, warrior.”


“You were lovers,” Xena stated.


Nikki stopped breathing for a moment. “Yes, did she also tell you why?”


“Yes, at first it was to protect her, then it was something else later.”


“Yes,” Nikki admitted. “I wasn’t exactly unwilling to make love to her.” She heard Xena growl. “I also know it was hard for her. It was your name that she bit into a blanket to keep from calling out when that bastard was watching and listening, it was your name I had to cover her lips from crying out in a nightmare every night. It was your face and your eyes she looked for every single morning. Not mine, Xena. She never loved me, and, give her credit, she never pretended to.”


“You still want her.”


Nikki laughed loudly. “Get some reality, Xena! Of course I do! Hasn’t everyone that’s ever met her?”


Xena did have to grin at that one.


“That doesn’t mean that I would act on those feelings ever again. We’re not in the same situation and she doesn’t think of me like that. Yours is the only body and soul she’ll ever want again. Later as time went on, we sought each other for sex but there was friendship and nothing more. I held her while she cried afterwards but it was you she was crying for.” Nikki told the warrior.


“What happens now?” Xena asked.


“I can either make my way back to the Amazons or go further north and seek my parent’s people out.”


“You can travel and stay with us when we go north,” Xena offered but Nikki shook her head.


“You know I can’t do that. There’s nothing between Gabrielle and me and there never will be but it’ll always be there, Xena. Always. I’ve shared her body with you. I have to find my own mate and keep my friendship with both of you. If I stay I don’t think that would last.”


“You’re right. I’m sorry, you’ve been a good friend to Gabrielle and I know that.”


“She’s my Queen.” Nikki shrugged.


“Didn’t she tell you that she’s not Queen anymore?” Xena grinned.


“Of course, from the very beginning but that didn’t matter. Once a Queen, always a Queen.”


Xena grinned, shaking her head.


Hercules grinned to himself when they walked in. At least neither of them appeared wounded nor dead.


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“Nikki, how am I supposed to say goodbye to you,” Gabrielle demanded as they walked along the trail leading south.


The Amazon Viking had already said her farewells to Xena, Hercules and Iolaus a few moments before. She had been surprised when Xena hadn’t protested her lover walking Nikki down the road for a ways to make her own good-byes.


Nikki tried to smile. “Don’t you dare make me cry, damnit,” she teased the small woman beside her.


Gabrielle smiled a sad smile and stopped. Nikki turned to face her.


The bard wondered how to say goodbye when she couldn’t even sort out her feelings right then. Nikki had been her trainer, her friend and sort of lover. The woman had saved her life on many levels and Gabrielle felt guilty for using the Amazon’s love and attraction to the bard to stay alive.


Nikki smiled and lifted Gabrielle’s chin to look gray eyes into green ones. She gently wiped away a tear from the bard’s cheek.


“You could stay and go north with us.” Gabrielle whispered and then shook her head herself. “No, I know you can’t. I’m sorry.”


Nikki raised the bard’s chin again and grinned. “You are no longer Dancer and no longer Brie the gladiator. You have to find Gabrielle again and I can’t help you with that. I have myself to find. I love you and probably always will but my mate is someone and somewhere else.”


“I’m sorry about everything,” Gabrielle whispered, hugging the tall woman.


“Nothing to be sorry for. We were in a position of survival and I found a friend, a friend who helped me get my freedom. Thank you.”


“Thank you for training me and keeping me alive.” Gabrielle smiled as she pulled back out of the embrace. “You’ll always be my friend.”


“Thank you, my Queen.” Nikki grinned and then leaned down and kissed the bard lightly on the lips and then climbed up on her horse.


With a grin she was gone down the road at a fast trot, leaving the small bard to watch. Gabrielle frowned and began walking slowly back to the cabin where Xena waited for her.


The bard felt lost. She wasn’t Dancer, the gladiator; she wasn’t Brie, Roman slave but she didn’t feel like Gabrielle either. Her boots crunched in the light covering of snow on the ground. Hercules wanted to move north as soon as possible to avoid the deepening snow. Gabrielle wasn’t sure how she felt about that. The bard knew they had to get out of Roman territory, so they couldn’t return to Greece but she wasn’t sure she wanted to go North either. Gabrielle didn’t know where she wanted to go and didn’t feel like she belonged anywhere.

She was surprised to find Hercules and Iolaus gone when she returned to the cabin. The bard raised her eyebrows at the sight of Xena cooking at the fireplace while Sasha played on the floor next to her Mom with some blocks of wood. Xena smiled at her mate as Gabrielle pulled off her woolen cloak and stamped her boots against the doorway.


“You okay?” Xena asked as Gabrielle pulled up a chair on the other side of Sasha.


“Yeah, feels weird. Nikki and I were side by side for over a year, the only time we weren’t was when I was in the Arena.”


“She’s a good friend.” Xena commented, stirring a pot.


“Yes, I seem to have a good number of them.” Gabrielle smiled. “Where’s Herc and Iolaus?”


“They’ve gone hunting for a couple of days. I think Hercules is giving us some time alone here and some time alone for them.”


Gabrielle raised her eyebrows again. “Is he going to tell Iolaus how he feels?”


“I don’t know. They seem to be a lot like us, everyone knows but them.” Xena grinned.

“A couple of days,” Gabrielle repeated.


“Yup. Are you okay with that?”


Even though they had talked two days earlier and Xena had even made love to her, Gabrielle still felt the wall between them and was getting more and more frustrated as to how to knock it down. “Yeah, I know we need it.”


Xena watched as her mate began absently pulling on her tunic hem, an obvious sign that Gabrielle was nervous and distraught. The warrior waited. Gabrielle’s head dropped.


“I need you, Xena,” she whispered and the warrior was kneeling in front of her in a flash. Gabrielle looked into her mate’s blue eyes with tears threatening to flow. “I want you so badly that it hurts physically but I freeze every time I start to reach for you. Help me!” she suddenly pleaded and Xena took the small bard in her arms.


“Shhhh, it’s all right, little one. I’m here, I’m not going anywhere as long as you’ll have me,” Xena whispered, stroking the blonde’s hair and holding her tight.


After a few minutes Gabrielle pulled back, wiping tears away. She attempted a grin at her mate.


“I don’t know how to get past this,” she admitted.


“A little bit at a time, my love.” Xena smiled reassuringly.


Sasha laughed and threw a block of wood, hitting her mom in the ankle. “Ouch!” Xena growled and turned, quickly grabbing her daughter and swinging the laughing little bundle in her arms and began tickling the little one.


Gabrielle couldn’t help but grin. Watching Xena with the child had been a revelation to the little bard. She was seeing sides of Xena that the warrior didn’t even know about. The bard grinned even wider and moved down into the floor on the fur with her two loved ones, laying on an elbow, watching the two play.


Xena grinned, watching as Gabrielle began to relax. She surprised the bard by handing over the still giggling Sasha and went to the fireplace and stirred the pot of deer stew. Gabrielle laughed as Sasha tackled her and sat on the bard’s very firm abs.


“Oooofff!” Gabrielle teased, holding Sasha’s hands and rocking her back and forth with her legs.


“I wanted to be there when you were born, Sasha, so badly.” Gabrielle said to the blue eyes that looked so familiar.


“I wish you had been, my love.” Xena commented, walking over and grabbing bowls off a shelf. To the bowls she added spoons, a loaf of bread, some cheese and a bottle of wine.


“Knowing you, it wasn’t your usual birth. Tell me about it.” Gabrielle grinned over her shoulder at Xena, dishing out the stew into the bowls.


Xena grinned back. “Actually it wasn’t a simple birth. Well, the birth was, the place and timing weren’t.” While they ate Xena told her mate the circumstances of Sasha’s birth. The raid on the steading, the quick flight to the hunting cabin with Xena in labor. Gabrielle grinned at the thought of Xena bouncing around in a speeding wagon while in labor. She got a piece of bread thrown at her for that giggle.


Xena lost her smile as she described the battle at the cabin, the strange woman warrior coming to their aid. Sasha, Axel’s wife of their adopted Germanic family, helping deliver the baby and then standing beside Iolaus in defense against the raiders and falling to an ax. Of Ketli the Mouse, a small boy burying a hatchet in the neck of a raider and stabbing another with a sword. A boy only a few summers old. Xena told her mate of the warrior woman finishing off the raiders, suffering what must have been devastating and fatal wounds only to disappear.


“Do you think she was a Valkyrie, like Ketli said?” Gabrielle asked.


“I don’t know. They don’t seem to have many personal visits from their gods up here and everyone was amazed by the story.” Xena shrugged.


“I could get used to the gods not bothering us,” Gabrielle grinned.


“Even though Sasha is the daughter of one?” Xena asked seriously.


“As long as he stays out of our lives until the end of time, I’d be happy.” Gabrielle stated, handing Sasha another piece of bread.


“I’ll agree to that. I wonder if we can ever go back to Greece.” Xena frowned.


“He found me at Lycrassis’ school.” Gabrielle whispered and, watched Xena go pale. Gabrielle closed her eyes, remembering. “He taunted me about Nikki,” Gabrielle whispered and focused on Sasha and helping the little one get more food in her than on her. Xena waited, watching the tears begin to fall from her beloved’s eyes again.


“He offered to zap both of us out of there, to anywhere we wanted, if I told him where you were and why you left Greece.”


“Terrific. I guess he hasn’t given up,” Xena muttered.


Gabrielle laughed a bitter laugh. “Hardly.”


“Why didn’t you tell him and get the Hades out of there?” Xena asked with a frown.


“I couldn’t tell him where you were and why you left Greece!” Gabrielle protested.


“You could have taken the chance that he wouldn’t be powerful enough outside of Greek and Roman territories and gotten out of that pit.”


“No, I couldn’t!” Gabrielle stormed to her feet and began pacing. “I couldn’t do that, Xena. I didn’t even think about it.”


“Then why do you doubt your love for me now?” Xena asked softly and the bard stopped dead, a shocked look on her face and then she frowned.


“Is that what I’m doing?” she whispered.


“You won’t forgive yourself for everything that happened and you won’t forgive me for not finding you.”


Gabrielle was on her knees in front of Xena’s chair in an instant, removing the warrior’s bowl and grabbing Xena’s hands. “No, that’s not it. I probably would have beaten you senseless if I thought you were putting yourself in danger for me again with Sasha on the way,” Gabrielle protested.


“Then forgive yourself, little one! I’d rather have you alive than a corpse on some fire heap outside a Roman villa,” Xena urged.


Gabrielle closed her eyes and buried her head in Xena’s hands. “I keep seeing the faces, every time I close my eyes. The men who hurt me, the men I killed, Caesar, Lycrassis, all of them.”


“You’re free, Gabrielle. You’re back with me,” Xena whispered, kissing the top of the bard’s head.


“I’m not back with myself, Xena.” Gabrielle looked up into the blue eyes, her face reflecting the feeling of loss that was overwhelming her.


“We have to find a way to settle Brie, Dancer and Gabrielle together. You can’t go back to what you were, little one. You’ve been through too much.”


“How do I get those damned faces out of my thoughts?!” Gabrielle suddenly demanded.


“The ones you killed or the ones who raped you?” Xena asked softly.


“Both,” the bard whispered.


“You don’t.” Xena said bluntly. “That’s what wakes me up at night and then I find you holding me and comforting me. It eases with time but it never goes away.”


Gabrielle frowned and Xena stood up and walked up behind her bard and wrapped her strong arms around her lover as Sasha began banging her spoon in her bowl. Gabrielle grinned at the sight of the little one covered with food.


“Your other little one is calling, my love.”


“Ack!” Xena quickly kissed Gabrielle’s neck and then bent and scooped up her daughter. “Bath for you!” she grinned and Gabrielle followed.


As they waited for water to heat up for the small tub Xena began removing her little daughter’s clothes while Sasha grinned and resisted. “Hey you! Come back here!” Xena said playful, lifting her daughter in the air and getting a delighted squeal from the youngster.


Gabrielle poured water into the wash basin and watched Xena begin the task of bathing Sasha and attempt to keep most of the water in the tub without getting everyone and everything soaked. Gabrielle grinned and then lost her smile.


“Want to talk about it?” Xena asked.


“Why not. You asked me the other day how I felt after a match, after I killed someone,” the bard began and the warrior nodded. “I told you I usually threw up and wanted a bath. That wasn’t it totally.” Gabrielle turned and walked over to the fire and Xena waited for her to continue.


“During the match I was Dancer, nothing existed but the match. The other fighter or fighters. I felt..... I felt, alive. Does that make sense?” Gabrielle turned to her warrior.


“Yes,” Xena nodded.


“My skills kept me alive. It was like a dance, a deadly dance and I was good at it and my body responded to that. The thought of having just killed someone sickened me but the dance, it made my blood sing.” Gabrielle closed her eyes to the admission.


“I understand that,” Xena said simply.


“You asked if I felt the need to bed someone or kill someone else after a fight,” Gabrielle opened her eyes and they were narrowed. Xena wasn’t sure where this was going but the tension in the air was suddenly very thick. She pulled Sasha out of the water and into a warm towel. She moved carefully to a chair by the fireplace to dry the youngster off.


“Yes, it’s common after a battle,” Xena said carefully.


Gabrielle’s jaw clinched and she turned back to the fire.


“Are you still feeling guilty that you turned to Nikki for that?” Xena asked softly.


Gabrielle turned, tears filling her eyes. “You knew?”


“Yes, my love. You would throw up after a match and then find Nikki. A sense of desperation tearing at your soul and body, needing human contact and sexual release, it would hit you like a tidal wave.” Xena carefully kept her eye on Sasha, letting the bard absorb the description. When she glanced up Gabrielle’s hands were tight fists and her eyes were closed. The struggle evident on her face.


“Let it go, Gabrielle. You’re human, I don’t blame you for anything that happened while you were gone.” Xena spoke softly, beginning to dress Sasha, wishing she could hold Gabrielle right then but unsure if the bard would let her.


With a yell of anger Gabrielle grabbed her cloak and was out the door.


Xena sighed and began rocking her daughter. “Time for a nap, Sasha, while your other mom works off some energy.”


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Xena sighed as Sasha finally drifted off to sleep. She carefully wrapped a blanket around her little one, grabbed her cloak, and then her sword and went out, following Gabrielle’s footprints in the snow to the one room stable.


The warrior wasn’t surprised to find the little bard practicing with her sais, her body already bathed in a light sheen of sweat and her breathing was a little heavy. Her eyes flashed as Xena entered the stable and dropped her cloak off her tall shoulders.


Xena carefully placed the sleeping child in the middle of a small haystack, arranging the blankets and hay to make a nest for the little one.


“Go away, please,” Gabrielle growled.


“Nope, not this time, little one. You need some practice?” Xena pulled the sword out of its scabbard.


“I don’t think this is a good idea,” Gabrielle growled again and Xena could see Dancer in the eyes.


“You’re used to practicing, why not with me?” Xena approached cautiously, swinging her sword a couple of times around her wrists and then over her other hand, catching it easily in her hand again. Beginning a dance of weapons.


Dancer’s eyes narrowed as her body leaned slightly back, taking a defensive position. “Xena, I’m not... I don’t....” Gabrielle tried to talk past Dancer’s control.


“It’s all right, let it go.” Xena’s experienced eyes sized up her smaller opponent with a nod of approval. Nikki had trained her little mate well, she thought. The small Greek moved like a Dancer, a deadly one. Xena grinned and launched herself forward with a series of sword strikes and found each of them neatly parried or blocked, she quickly twisted away from the blunt end of one of the sais, sliding just past her jawline. Both warriors separated and began circling, each looking for an opening.


Again the warriors met in the center of the room, sword and sais flashing. Xena realized quickly that the bard had been taught to go for crippling moves as soon as possible and barely dodged a heavy blow aimed for her shoulder but didn’t avoid a closed fist alongside her eye from the other direction. She quickly reacted with a kick that sent the little bard back several feet.

Xena knew she could take Gabrielle but didn’t want to end it just yet. Dancer’s eyes were still flashing with the pent up anger of a hundred matches in the Arena and weeks of repeated beatings and rape. She brushed aside a trickle of blood flowing from a cut above her eye. Xena grinned to herself, at least when Hercules pushed her into releasing some of that anger she hadn’t been armed. Xena was facing a deadly opponent who was armed. Countering that was the fact that it was Gabrielle, her mate. Xena was counting on Gabrielle coming through and conquering Dancer.


Xena just hoped that she didn’t get too injured before Gabrielle won out. Also that she wouldn’t have to hurt Gabrielle.


Gabrielle lunged forward and Xena reacted with a parry but found empty space as the gladiator dived forward into a roll and came up under Xena’s sword with her sais in the warrior’s ribs. Fortunately, Dancer was still in control enough to use the blunt end. Xena stumbled back and instinctively struck out with her free hand, catching Dancer across the jaw and sending the smaller woman stumbling back. Xena held back from rushing to her mate in concern as Dancer spit out blood, touching a split lip.


The Dancer was on her again with a shout and Xena blocked two strikes and found herself holding the gladiator to keep from hurting either of them. She dropped her sword and grabbed Dancer around the ribs and held tight.


“Come back to me, Gabrielle,” Xena whispered.


Dancer yelled in anger and bent her legs enough to launch herself back into the warrior, taking both of them to the floor. Xena lost her grip and found herself in a wrestling match with the small woman. The warrior quickly grabbed Gabrielle’s foot as the small fighter dived for her sais and yanked the blonde back. Xena growled in her throat as Dancer kicked out with the other foot and caught her in the chest.


Xena was finding herself at a distinct disadvantage. She was holding back and holding back a lot to keep from hurting Gabrielle. Her mate, however, was lost to the Dancer and wasn’t holding back much.


Dancer grabbed the sais and Xena decided it was enough. She didn’t fight back as the smaller woman tackled her to the floor again and straddled the warrior, a foot on Xena’s sword wrist. Xena looked up into Dancer’s eyes and the sais held over her throat.


“Gabrielle,” she said simply.


Dancer blinked.


“Gabrielle, kiss me.”


Xena watched the shift in Gabrielle’s eyes from Dancer to bard and the fear start to overwhelm her lover. Gabrielle’s foot shifted and Xena gently reached up and removed the sais from her mate’s hands. She shifted underneath the smaller woman and pulled Gabrielle down on top of her, pinning the bard against her with her strong arms.


“No, don’t run from this. It’s part of you now. Kiss me and let that part of you go. I want you, now!” Xena whispered and pulled Gabrielle’s head from behind and forced the bard’s lips to her own.


Gabrielle resisted a moment and then attacked her lover’s lips with a passion that even surprised the former Conqueror. The bard laced her fingers through Xena’s hair and her tongue demanded entrance roughly. Xena moaned and obliged, both tongues fighting for dominance in their new exploration of each other. It was as if she was making love to Gabrielle for the first time.


The bard pulled back, sitting back on Xena’s legs, breathing heavily. Xena looked up into the heavy lidded eyes.


“I want you now, Gabrielle. I want you to take me, claim me! I want your hand inside of me and your teeth in my neck.” Xena sat up as Gabrielle moaned and closed her eyes. “Now!” Xena grabbed Gabrielle’s face with her hands and brought the bard’s lips back to her own, roughly. She pulled back slightly and let Gabrielle feel Xena’s tongue taste the blood from the bard’s split lip.


Gabrielle growled and claimed Xena’s lips again, pushing the warrior back onto the hay they had landed on. As her mouth was working on bringing more moans out of her warrior, Gabrielle’s hands were moving all over Xena’s body, sending shocks up and down the warrior’s body. The bard’s hands grabbed at Xena’s tunic and pulled it up with a growl and off of her warrior. Before Xena could move, Gabrielle’s teeth grabbed one of her nipples roughly, her hand following suit with the other nipple. Xena cried out and felt her body arching and her loins responding with incredible wetness.


“Yes!” she hissed as Gabrielle’s hand began tugging impatiently at the warrior’s belt. She claimed Xena’s lips again roughly as her hands worked at Xena’s belt and trouser drawstring. Xena raised her hips as Gabrielle pulled back and yanked the warrior’s trousers down with a growl and then pinned her back to the floor.


Xena wasn’t sure if she was seeing Gabrielle or Dancer in the eyes any longer. She moved to grab Gabrielle’s tunic and the blonde growled again and grabbed Xena’s wrists with one of her strong hands and held the warrior’s hands over her head. Xena felt a moment of ..... what? Fear, panic? Desire? All of them?


Gabrielle kissed Xena deeply and the warrior could feel the bard’s soul reaching out and grabbing her and her body responding as well as her heart. She felt her back arching as the bard’s other hand grasped one of her nipples and then the bard started kissing her warrior from her lips to her nipples, first one then the other and back to Xena’s lips.


“Please, I need you!” Xena whispered.


Gabrielle let go of Xena’s hands but growled when the warrior started to reach for her. The warrior smiled and let the bard continue with her attack upon her body and in a moment her back was arching, she was biting her lips and moaning as Gabrielle bit one of her nipples and a hand went between Xena’s legs, discovering how wet the warrior was.


With another growl Gabrielle entered Xena, causing the warrior’s hips to buck of their own accord and the warrior to cry out. The dark warrior grabbed fistfuls of hay as her body rocked with the rhythm that her bard was setting and Gabrielle’s teeth moved up to her neck, finding the spot that always drove Xena insane. Somewhere in the back of her mind Xena realized that it was her own voice she was hearing crying out, begging the small bard for more and more, her body begging as well.


Xena’s consciousness fled as she felt the bard’s small fist claim her totally and the teeth threaten to break her skin and claim her blood as well. Everything centered on the rocking sensation and the fingers playing inside of her, threatening to expand the hand inside of her. Xena felt sweat running off her body as her breathing became more and more labored.


Gabrielle moved slowly down along her warrior’s body, between Xena’s legs, slowly moving her fist inside of her mate, her own eyes heavy with desire. The warrior almost screamed as Gabrielle’s other hand found her clit and began massaging the tender and enflamed erotic spot. Xena felt tears falling from behind her closed eyes and her body shaking, hands trembling, opening and closing with the spasms that were wracking the rest of her body.


Gabrielle, feeling the muscles contracting and trembling inside of Xena, increased her speed and bent down to kiss the warrior for a moment and then turned her tongue to her warrior’s clit. Time seemed to stop for the warrior as her body and soul rose higher and higher and Gabrielle tried to hold on. Xena couldn’t tell how long her body shook and begged and climbed, pinned to her bard. She felt like her soul was only held on Earth by her connection to Gabrielle and the hand filling her and sending her higher.


Xena felt everything go red as a scream was ripped from her body involuntarily, her body taking over totally, giving over to her bard. Wave after wave assaulted her, like being tossed about on waves of a rough sea.


As Xena struggled to breathe again she opened her eyes and found her bard holding her, soothing her, wiping tears away from her warrior’s face.


“Oh gods, what was that?” she grinned.


She was pleased to see Gabrielle blushing and reached up to touch her mate’s face gently.


“I’m sorry if I was a little rough,” Gabrielle said softly.


“Don’t apologize, damnit. I knew what I was doing,” Xena grinned.


Gabrielle arranged herself next to her warrior, snuggling into Xena’s shoulder, sighing with contentment with the familiar comfort.


“You knew?” Gabrielle whispered.


“I’ve been there, remember?” Xena smiled.


Suddenly Gabrielle was leaning on an elbow and looking deep in Xena’s eyes. “You’ve been there,” she repeated. “After a battle or a fight, right?”


“Yes,” Xena admitted, feeling the beginning a blush coming to her face.


“Why didn’t you turn to me if you were feeling that way?” Gabrielle asked with a frown.


“I was afraid,” Xena admitted in a soft voice.


“Of what?” Gabrielle demanded.


“Of hurting you. I was afraid of losing control and hurting you, physically and emotionally. Things can get out of hand when the blood lust hits.”


“No kidding, wait till you see your neck,” Gabrielle grinned. “Xena,” the bard hesitated, looking down at the warrior’s hands.


“What, little one?” Xena smiled.


“How’s your energy level now?” Gabrielle said boldly, blushing all the same.


“Let me show you.” Xena grinned and rolled the bard onto her back.


“Xena,” the warrior hesitated, looking deep in green eyes. “Don’t be gentle, please.”


Xena closed her eyes and moaned, feeling the fire of passion overcome her again. Her energy level hitting a new high. The warrior answered with a moan and quickly began stripping her mate of her clothing. As she reached for Gabrielle she felt a growl leave her throat and heard an answering one from her mate as her hand reached between Gabrielle’s legs and she claimed the bard’s lips at the same time with her teeth and tongue.


As several fingers entered the bard, Gabrielle bit down hard on Xena’s shoulder and her nails dug into as well. Xena, what little conscious thought leaked through her passion fogged mind, reflected that Gabrielle seemed to enjoy those teeth. Left over remnants from being a bacchae?


Xena moaned and roughly added more to her hand and rhythm and bit down on the bard’s neck, almost drawing blood herself. Her thumb found the bard’s clit and Gabrielle cried out, almost pulling Xena over her own edge again with just the sound.


“Yes! Take me!” Gabrielle growled, tossing her head back in passion.


Xena growled and shifted slightly, causing the bard to whimper when Xena removed her hand from the bard. Xena turned the bard into her and quickly entered Gabrielle from behind and biting down on the bard’s neck from behind. Gabrielle cried out, grabbing the hay, hands flailing as if grasping in drowning. Xena pulled back to whisper in her bard’s ear.


“I remember the bacchae, my love. This is how I wanted you to take me right then, so badly. Remember how I moaned as you drank from me? I felt your body connect to me right then, I could feel your passion. It wasn’t just the blood. I should have taken you right then after that fight.”


Gabrielle moaned, arching back into the warrior.


“Xena!” she cried.


“Yes, my love?” Xena smiled, nibbling on the bard’s ear, slowing the rhythm of her hand, pulling a frustrated cry from her mate.


“Take me, damnit! Now!” Gabrielle pleaded and then gasped as Xena added more fingers and increased the speed and depth of her thrusts. Gabrielle cried out, almost screaming right then as her body began to shake at Xena’s hand. “Gods, yes!” she growled and then did scream as Xena bit her neck again.


Xena felt the bard’s body thrashing and bucking, her hips rocking back to meet Xena’s fingers, demanding more and more and the warrior moaned, pulling the bard’s body close to her, whimpering with the contact of skin to skin and the bard’s rising passion.


“Oh gods,” she whispered, feeling her own edge approaching again as she took her mate higher and higher until Gabrielle was crying and whimpering, wordlessly begging for release. The bard bit her own lip, opening the fresh wound and tasting her own blood, and suddenly she felt like a lightning bolt went crashing through her. She screamed again.


Xena felt her own body thrusting against the bard, matching Gabrielle’s rhythm and then the bard’s muscles contracting again and again as the bard screamed her name and curled into a fetal ball in the warrior’s arms. Xena cried out with her own release with Gabrielle and then curled around her mate.


“I love you, Xena,” the bard whispered


“I love you, Gabrielle,” the warrior whispered, using her sword to grab her cloak and spread it over them.


Xena didn’t say anything about the scars on her mate’s back from lashings of a whip nor about the scar of the gladiator brand on her shoulder. They could handle that later, she thought, nuzzling down into sleep with her love.


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When Hercules and Iolaus returned two days later they both raised eyebrows at the sight of the cut above Xena’s eye, bruise along her jaw and the bard’s cut lip and black eye but said nothing when the women didn’t volunteer any information. They also took in the massive bruising at each woman’s neck and decided they probably didn’t want the details of those bruises.


Xena and Gabrielle also noticed, with smiles, similar bruises on the necks of the Greek warriors.